Am I???

Doing the right things? Making the right choices? Talking to the right people? Having fun in the right way?

Am I HAPPY???

Don't know if I'm ever really happy for more than a few moments at a time so I don't think I can claim to BE happy on any kind of permanent basis. I think things are going pretty well but just when I try to sit with that for awhile some dumb shit happens that makes me think I'm all fucked up again. Mental illness? Lifestyle? LIFE? Who can I blame around here?!